Sunday, February 8, 2009

my laptop's condition is terminal


It's interesting the angles Satan has been taking to try and make me frustrated. In December everything was lost. Then there was the car thing. (Oops, I mean "is".) Recently I've been having other computer problems, sometimes my computer won't turn on for a whole day.

Today I Googled it, only to discover that the condition is terminal. What happens sometimes is a motherboard just doesn't have anything to motivate it anymore. So now, I'm starting to see signs that it will die soon. I don't know the day or time, but we've begun this process. Repairing it is possible, but the cost isn't worth it--it's almost the same price as a new laptop.

I don't know why God's allowing this to happen--why God wants my savings to be dried up, but it will. Praise Him for giving me that money in the first place. I don't know what I'm supposed to learn, but I'm searching the Scriptures and in prayer to find out why.

When I first discovered this problem a couple weeks ago, I was reading my Bible and came to Psalm 16, which reads:
1Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge. 2I say to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you."

3As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones,
in whom is all my delight.

4The sorrows of those who run after another god shall multiply;
their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out
or take their names on my lips.

5The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
6 The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.

7I bless the LORD who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
8 I have set the LORD always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.

9Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
10For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,
or let your holy one see corruption.

11You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
In other words: my salvation is not in this Macbook. My salvation is secure, in the name and works of Christ. I have no good or solid thing apart from Christ, not from objects or theologies or even what I do in His name.